but here's the thing with sleep...
well, in 3 words: i miss it.
music festival'd out.
i miss staying up late and sleeping in. i really miss a solid 8 hours sleep without interruptions. (hell, i miss 5 hours without interruption.) and i really miss falling into that deep, deep sleep - you know the one where you wake up for nothing? i don't have any of those luxuries any more.
when people ask me if woodrow is a good sleeper, i'm not really sure how to answer. he's an okay sleeper i say most of the time. sometimes he's a terrible sleeper (like this past week as he's teething and ready to cut his 3rd tooth i think), and occasionally he is a wonderful sleeper. there was this one magical night when he was 8 weeks old where he conked out at 11pm and slept through the night, only waking up at 545am. at first mark and i both woke with a start, afraid something was wrong, but then realized he was fine. i think of that night fondly and i have been chasing that sleep ever since!
we have been cosleeping with woodrow from day one. after our homebirth, once the midwives had said their goodbyes, we all curled up in our bed together for the night. it was absolutely incredible and we have been doing so ever since. i never got around to looking into cosleepers or sidecars, and frankly our bedroom isn't really big enough to accommodate a bassinet anyways. i really feel like for the first weeks and months, sharing a bed with woodrow meant that i was getting more sleep than if he had been sleeping on his own. nursing in bed is a cinch (after overcoming the initial breastfeeding challenges, of which i had many) as it means only needing to roll over, but it's common for cosleeping babes to nurse more at night than their sleep-alone counterparts, so that is also partially why i'm lacking sleep.
around 3 months we had found a bit of a groove with sleep where woodrow was only waking 2 or 3 times a night to nurse, but by 5 months we had regressed to 4-5 wake ups. and now? well, right now the little mister is waking every couple hours all night to comfort nurse. i can only imagine how painful it is to cut teeth and so i'm happy to sooth him however i can. i know one day i'll sleep through the night again....
woodrow goes to sleep at 7pm these days which is lovely since it has given mark and i our evenings back to ourselves (in theory at least), to make a nice dinner, sit down together and eat and watch a movie. i started putting him down for bed in his crib in his own room when he was about six months old and had started doing a lot of rolling and the tummy shuffle as i was nervous he'd fall off our bed (even though it's low to the ground). at first it was absolutely heartbreaking for me, but he's been fine with it. if he wakes up in the early evening i will go in, nurse him and return him to his crib. then when he has his next wake up around 10 or 11 i'll bring him to our room and tuck in for the night too. i'm not in any rush for him to sleep the whole night in his crib yet. for starters, as long as he is nursing overnight i'm perfectly content to not have to get up out of my warm bed and stumble to another room and have to sit in a chair to feed him. (and i have no plans of night weaning him yet.) but also because i love the closeness it offers our little family, all cuddled up in bed and i'm not ready for my baby to leave the family bed yet! lucky for me mark and i are on the same page and he too loves having him in bed with us. the only challenge of late is that prior to cutting a tooth, woodrow has a bad habit of waking up around 4am and staying up to play for an hour and a half. we for the most part ignore this and continue dozing as we try to shush him back to sleep too, but now that he is climbing and crawling we have to continually corale him in so that he can't make an escape off the bed!
sigh... but on the other hand, i remind myself daily that i do have the most incredible little person in my life now instead, and so for the time being, i'm okay with that trade off. as a side note too - i continue to be totally amazed at how well i can function with sleep deprivation now that i'm a mama. seriously, i used to be a walking zombie without a solid 8 hours, but somehow now i can manage without feeling that tired nausea that used to trouble me. funny how that happens.
so there you have it: the story of sleep in our house right now.
now to try and squeeze in a hot shower and some dishes before he stirs from this nap...
what about you? did you or do you plan on the crib, cosleeping or a meeting of the two? would you try anything different the next time or did you do things differently with subsequent babes? any tips for the middle of the night play sessions? something tells me i'm not the only tired one here!